Once upon a December

do not stand at my grave and weep
i am not there, i do not sleep
i am a thousand winds that blow
i am the diamond light on snow
i am the sunlight on the ripened grain
i am the gently falling autumn rain

when you wake up in the morning rush
i am the swift uplighting rush
of quiet birds in circling flight
i am the soft starlight at night
do not stand at my grave and cry
i am not there, i did not die

Mary Elizabeth Frye

been a while huh, bloggie dearie? suddenly, its december the 11th already. time oh time. why do you have to fly so quickly. fell ill last couple of days. first it was fever. then sore throat. then came the itch. gosh, werent they annoying? all that during your birthday. sad.

i hate sickness, people who fall sick, my sick self, the feeling, the whole thing. who wouldnt? just dont know how to tolerate them. the feeling of no control over self. and when its others, how to behave around them? am i being a useless stone? or my helping hand never really actually help in any way? thats why im not a doctor, you see. its wrong, i know. so selfish of me. still, saying that im not would obviously mean im lying, which is not good, not good at all. so better honesty then being hypocrite.

birthday. thanks to those who remembered. my turn now, to remember those who remembered. lets see..

1. hotlink. for the 2-days-advanced wish
2. shark. thanks for the cards. and the wishes. all the messages. and for wishing me well. thanks a bunch
3. kenneth the kucing liar. thanks for the msn message
4. alex. for the cake.
5. kok chun. for the fight we never had
6. winston. for the birthday celebration. if not for you, the celebration wouldnt happen aite?thanks for tolerating the sick me too. thanks a lot
7. hafiz, my roomie. didnt expect you remembered. but you did. so many many thanks to you.
8. caom. for remembering. and the present you mention. i'll wait. ngee
9. ara. oh ara. thanks for the 47 minutes.
   congrats for getting 4 flat. and breaking the news on december the 4th, on the exact first minute of the day made it extra special huh?hehe. thanks buddy.
10. athirah. oh girl. really guilty when u wished me. i didnt even wish u during urs. sorry
11. angelia. thanks. who knew, of all the people i knew in the integrasi camp, we're the only one, still in touch. we werent even group mates. and we met during the dishwashing time by the river. haha.
12. nadzriq and hazmi. thanks for the whole day in sunway.
13. and hazman, for the evil card. haha. thanks anyway. i'll be the farting cat during ur birthday next time k? and the 5.5o. next time k.
14. sloth. thanks for the message. =D
15. along, angah, anan, sharif, naquib, abah and mama. thanks ye. for the third card. a first, in my life, my 18 years of life. 3 cards. huhu.
16. miera. sorry you couldnt join, the day in sunway.
17. lester, muni and neb. facebook.
18. mantap. friendster. thanks
19. edward hoh.
20. and many more thanks to all, all those who remembered, that is. haha

back to the present. today. what a day. woke up really early. and its the holiday. pretty amazing. im impressed myself. went to the clinic. naquib sakit. ill yet able to annoy me. hebat. you're really one in a million, lil bro.

sounds a bit weird here, right? suddenly, the boy who never fail to play the little-lest boy have a smaller brother. im really no good at playing the big brother you see. me always been the little one. suddenly some 5 years later, they came. so it takes time to tune back, ok! and i mean lotsa time. back to the point, whatever the point is, maybe its time for me to grow? i hated that word. grow. dont think i have to. since when everyone was growing, physically, i didnt. so theres no need to suddenly grow now, doesnt it?

anyways, i suddenly feel its time to change my blog. so here is my new blog link. just a simple averagejoe.blogspot.com. no more outfitrepeater.blogspot.com that is. makes me sounds like im so fashion-cautious, which im not. so the simple and lame one suits me and my bloggie better. am gonna change it in few days time. no rush. so those who care, take note ya. and those who dont, theres no need to. wouldnt want to trouble you reading my oh-so-boring blog. actually, it kinda is, right?haha. hell with it. after all, it is mine!

averagejoe.blogspot.com

hopefully nobody had taken it. if they did, i'll just add a number or maybe another word, like plain? whatever it is, ur all mine, dear name. haha.

help!obsession alert!